The Dysfunctional System Obliterated

In the earlier stages of my life, I had what is called “ADD or attention deficit disorder”

I had been kicked out of several different preschools for failing to follow the ‘rules’.

From grades 1st through 3rd I could never focus, wanted to be the class clown, didn’t get good grades and was constantly being yelled at by the teachers and my parents.

I was threatened on a consistent basis about my grades being poor, how I was a bad student and it was ANGRY energy being sent my way and I just figured then that there was something seriously wrong with me.

I ended up getting held back and had to redo 3rd grade. Things progressively got better from there although my grades still fluctuated, I started being able to focus more somewhat.

In fact, what I was taught was to do good in school, so I could go to college and be “whatever I wanted” when I grew up.

I was taught about the importance of money, the importance of following the rules and last but not least how to compete against kids in sports and academics.

I realized at a young age how enjoyable movies are, how great music is to listen to and how exciting Christmas is when I finally got to open my gifts that I had been waiting a month for.

One of the less enjoyable experiences that gradually existed throughout each year was the constant fighting, low energy and the ANGRY energy that circulated throughout my household and school as well.

Fast forward to this moment as a 28-year-old guy, and OH BOY has my perspective on just about everything been completely revamped.

I have realized now that their truly is a common dysfunction in the human mind that has started from centuries and centuries ago. It’s not bad, in fact not bad at all simply because we didn’t know any better or had a lack of awareness that unconsciousness was happening.

Let’s take a look and dissect a few of the collective dysfunctions and then hopefully as this brings awareness can we make expand our awareness or thus also known as consciousness, to bring lasting change.

#1. Identification with the mind.

This is perhaps the root of all roots and where a good portion of all of humanities problems begin from. And that is the collective identification with the mind. Meaning the world takes itself to be the mind, to be the thought, to be the emotion and to be the feeling.

I was telling my nephew that the nature of the mind is that it wants to survive so what better way than to learn from those who are surviving on how live and this where the conditioning happens.

So what does this mean?

It means that those who we ‘learn’ from have already built the path, so why not walk that road and it can guarantee that the mind survives its number one mission.

Moving on…

#2. Identification with Time

Thought itself is built from past and of the future. It fluctuates between the past and future almost to the point where they blend in with each other and we unconsciously can barely notice the difference, because time is using us.

We know that past is behind us and future lies ahead but when time is using us it doesn’t matter according to the mind matter as long as it gets to dwell on time and keep itself alive.

Time in essence a drug to the mind because thought is a drug to the mind.

And here is why….

You will never be able to experience what we call the past. The mind will say yes, but I remember experiencing the past. You have never experienced the past, you only experienced the present moment and you remember that moment through memory but that moment is the same moment you are in now.

That moment you can remember and this moment are not two different moments, they are the same moment, they are this one.

And just as I have always been present in what I call the past, I will always be present in what I call future. Meaning that in the awareness of this breath time does not exist.

In the awareness of this breath, are you here right now.

Past & future only exist in the mind, they are synonymous. What this means is that when you keep your past alive by dwelling on it or dwelling on your memory, it means that you have identified who you are with the time.

When you seek to find yourself in the future to enhance the image built from your past it means that you’re looking for freedom within, in the future.

This is the say that the past builds the self-image and the future strengthens it, meaning that the mind is getting what it wants from the mind.

#3. Objects and World Experiences Linked with Freedom.

 Let’s start with word freedom.

Take a second and ask yourself why isn’t the very foundation of life NOT to find internal freedom according to society?

Remember, go to school grades K-12, then college, then get a career, have kids, plan for retirement, save for 401K but nowhere is internal freedom suggested?

From age 19 – 25

Once I had essentially flunked out of college because I could not handle the pressure of going into debt any longer, and focusing my attention in places that I could care less about.

I then went on a drinking rampage what we called a weekend warrior going from party to party, bar to bar on the weekends in search for a hot girl who I could hook up with and a beer pong table I could dominate. (Yes, this was ego, but was)

At the age of 24 however I quickly realized none of that partying could fulfill me so I decided to dedicate my life to personal growth and development.

And to sum this up this niche its motivational books, having better relationships and understanding your emotions.

Motivational World

Think and Grow Rich, The Secret and several other motivational books later I had a dream board with all the best cars on it, I had mansions, condos, traveling the world…ect

I was finally growing into who I wanted to become.

I got on a motivational rampage!

And what I have noticed today in the world of hustlers that Napoleon Hill, Earl Nightingale and the GURU’s of the motivational movement have REALLY made their marks today, they have made a large impact on the world.

More people are going after their dreams, more people are working out than ever before, more people are hustling like never before to accomplish what they set out to and I am one of them but there is a major difference now.

I had got to the point where it was uncomfortable if I wasn’t putting in action, no longer did the present moment exist for me but merely as a stepping stone to acquire what I had wanted on my “dream board.”

That is until I bought my first spiritual book, The Power of Now. The irony is that I didn’t have a clue what path it was going to take me down. I just thought it would be another motivational book that would help me focus all of my actions more intensely in the now.

Oh boy, was I in for a rude AWAKENING, pun intended.

And although The Power of Now had not completely sunk in for me the first time, as the year passed it slowly and gradually began to digest into my consciousness.

  • I realized now that all of that anger that was sent my way for those “bad grades” I was getting had NOTHING to do with my TRUE intelligence and nobody else’s for that matter whether you’re a straight A student or a straight F student.


  • I had now realized that all the movies, TV shows, music that our minds could soak up as unconscious acts to keep us from facing who we truly are.


  • I realize that college which has provided a lot of families with a lot great careers are still a part of the system to give you more comfort by increasing your chances of getting a career. (Not bad, but NOT absolutely necessary either)


  • I realized that although dreams are nice, that the nature of this physical world is that there is one constant and that is change and by placing your well-being in materials and experiences that they can’t ultimately fulfill you and without ever realizing that those can’t fulfill you, there will eventually be major suffering from within. Then because you suffer you will look for the next material, experience or person to keep your mind unsatisfied without actually realizing it.


  • I had realized that what 99% of the world has still not realized that there is a whole other dimension then the physical world than which we can perceive and that is the formless realm or the realm that can’t be comprehended, but is the realm of internal freedom.


  • I had realized that I am NOT my mind, that you cannot directly experience past and future because they only exist in the mind. And realize that for the first 24 ½ years of my life, I never TRULY knew what the present moment was or the rather the CONSCIOUS PRESENCE. I had only thought about the present moment and that IS why I never knew what it was.


  • I know realize in order to have a deep unshakeable, ever lasting peace I have become more in tuned, more friendly and more aware with eternal formless conscious presence.


  • I know realize that everything on my dream board could not fulfill me because “This too shall pass” meaning my initial excitement level would never be felt again. And that the only way to find that peace was to find the one constant that does not rely on time, nor can it which is the awareness of the present moment, through the body without comprehending it. This conscious presence is the only and everlasting fulfillment.


  • I realized that everything going on IN the world is relatively important but not absolutely important.


  • I realized that REAL intelligence, and absolute importance are not based on your IQ test scores, how much you make at your job or with anything for that matter but your level of consciousness which is to say your disidentification with the mind, and your relationship with the eternal, timeless conscious NOW.

The system has been built from the past, and the past has been filled with billions of unconscious humans, who didn’t know any better and that the only TRUE change that can happen is by people awakening to the formless conscious presence.

Unless the human race begins to collectively awaken to the present moment then we will continue using the mind and repeating the past until enough suffering has been created throughout the world.

This isn’t about creating a perfect world, in fact the physical world will never be perfect according to human mind, but less wars, less greed, less hate, less anger, less harm to and throughout the world can happen by the collective awakening to the PERFECTION of the inner state of its presence.

Matthew Scott Donnelly

Matthew Scott Donnelly was born and raised in Indiana. At the age of 24 he decided that he had not manifest a life that he was happy with, and decided to dedicate his heart and soul to Personal Growth and Development material. Roughly about one year later at the age of 25 he went from basic personal growth teachings to the a deeper realm into spirituality. Matthew is now 27 and his main focus is to continue on the path of awakening, and utilize his Facebook marketing skills to spread Spiritual and Consciousness related material to the rest of the world. You can follow Matthew and his work down below.

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