The ego is far deeper than the mind could comprehend, in fact the very root of the ego is the fact that it thinks that it knows what the ego is.
But until you know the timeless essence of all that is, the ego is will continue to live with you and cause a slight irritation, like an itchy sense in your experiences.
I have been called out for my ‘ego’, I have called out people for their ego, and I have seen others called out for their ego.
However, when others would use that term, or even me when regarding other people’s egos something never clearly felt right.
And I could never pinpoint what it was until I had I had been enlightened out of the false sense of who I am.
Being that there are no words to describe the true essence of you, the best words can do is wipe away everything you are not.
For the first 25 years of my life, I had identified who I am completely with the mind & with thought.
Because of the conditioning, a greater deal of the human race is also identified with the mind & with thought.
It wasn’t my fault, but nor was it my families, my cultures, my nations or the human races fault either, but it is something we must overcome if we want to live deeply fulfilled lives and trend toward a more peaceful humanity.
What I never realized as a result of being identified with the mind is that there is difference between being in the present moment and being aware of it.
You have never acted or breathed outside of the present moment, it is the only the mind that thinks the past and the future equal existence.
But until you have become aware of the present which I like to call it the conscious presence, then you have not REALLY been aware of what existence is.
Being identified with the mind means that you have been trapped inside of thought without realizing it.
Conscious presence comes into your awareness which is true awareness when all thought has subsided. The reason why is because the mind cannot interpret conscious presence, hence the reason that human beings have been stuck. If an illusion is cast over you, then you are stuck until the illusion is seen through.
Every single one of your thoughts are creating the physical reality that you live in. Your thoughts are your perception, your perspective, opinion, create your likes, dislikes and entire understanding of this physical reality.
However, this physical reality is far from the absolute reality it is tiny aspect of all the reality. See if the conscious now cannot be interpreted by thought, then that must mean in order to fully be aware of the now your perception cannot be aware of here either.
Consider what a newborn baby sees fresh out of the womb. Who, what, where, why, when and how do NOT exist to that of a new born baby.
This means that a baby has yet to have mind, to have thoughts, to have perception a baby knows nothing accept for the conscious now.
This is what being aware of the conscious now is, it means that when you are aware of the conscious now your entire thought process, entire perception goes back to zero.
Who, what, where, why, when and how vanish as if they never had an existence.
This is why the question who are you is fundamentally wrong already. It is also why the question what are you is also fundamentally wrong.
The thought of who is still a thought. The thought of what is still a thought. But because all thoughts go away in the conscious now, or through the bodies awareness that you are here without the mind knowing it, then you cannot be a what or a who.
The ego will ask how? That’s a thought. And why? Also a thought. And where do we go from here? Also a thought.
What’s the point of being conscious of the now?
To finally know existence so that you can be free. The conscious now is one true fulfillment, the everlasting freedom.
And the great thing about this is you don’t need to be anybody to know that you already free, that you are already fulfilled.
Back to the ego.
Almost most of the world still has yet to even know what the ego is, and that’s because they are stuck inside of it. Until you know the conscious now, you will live believing that you are a who and that who is the mind, is thought and is the materials that you perceive.
How does this look in real life terms?
- The car I just bout for a lot of money makes me as a person in something more. It makes me fulfilled and free.
- The house I live in that I worked so hard for has finally paid off and made me into more.
- The college scholarship that I can got as a result of my sports skills has made me & without it I am nothing.
- I need to hold onto memories for they are dear to who I am as a human mind.
- I need to race to the future, because it is there where I will find my fulfillment. In other words, I will be free once…
- Motivation and success are the keys to my absolute freedom, through the challenges and tribulations of gaining success it will create me into who I want to be.
People still use the term ego but in infinitely many different ways. There still has yet to be a concrete understanding of what it is actually is. And anything that is left open as an idea, opinion or perception is not concrete or stable at all.
The ego is simple, that you are identified who you are with this physical world of form, which stems from thought.
In fact, without realizing it, Rene Descartes came up with perhaps the one stop shop sentence for what exactly the ego is….
“I think therefore I am.”
Rather than debating what it is about, be aware of the conscious now. Because then all thought subsides and with thought goes perception, subjectivity, opinions, perspectives, views, interpretations, assessments and all else.
The most concrete absolute reality that there is, is the one that does not change based on your perspective, your opinion, your viewpoint and the way you perceive this physical reality.
This physical reality is based on time and therefore it is change itself, which is why the conscious now is the formless reality because it does not change, therefore it is timelessness itself.
Timelessness is going to continue being timeless regardless of your or my opinion about what reality is.
So in essence the ego is the thought that physical reality, time and mind are absolute reality but there are 7 ½ billion interpretations of this same one physical reality.
So which is the real absolute interpretation of this physical reality?
“Mine!” says the ego.
“Mine!” says the mind.
You cannot believe in anything for the timeless reality to be the absolute reality, and most importantly you cannot think for this reality to be absolute either.
And many people also wonder if you can get completely rid of the ego?
Well, firstly the word you also imply that you are a who again. The term you is the closest word for communication as humans we have to use the mind to communication with each other, which is why the words aren’t that important but what they are pointing too.
The real you, the you that is not based on being a subject or an object or even a who rather is already egoless. It is egolessness itself, because it is timeless and changeless.
It is only the ego itself that asks whether you can be egoless because you already are completely ego free.
The human mind however cannot. The human mind was given to you in order for the mind/body to survive. Hence the reason humans are survival creatures. The human mind cannot completely get rid of the very thing that blocks you away from the conscious now, which is thought.
There are however, less dense human minds. Meaning that the bodies that less dense, less rigid minds occupy are more prone to be able to be aware of the conscious now.
Sometimes and often times it is the denser, the more rigid and hard minds that go through enough internal suffering that they burst into vulnerability.
The interesting paradox here is that although you are not your mind, your emotions, feelings that they because you still have a physical existence it doesn’t matter if they are real or not when they are causing you tons of suffering, misery and pain.
Emotions are still a way we experience this physical realm, and until we realize the timeless essence of who we really are, then it will continue causing that ache in all experiences.
Once we awaken out of the false identification with the mind and with thought to the timeless now can we realize existence, reality, fulfillment and freedom all in one that are realized right here and right now.