Do you want to know how deeply dysfunctional the human mind is?
How deeply emotional pain has a hold onto you!?
Well, today while in the gym a spontaneous awareness hit me, about what it would take to find this.
Well, firstly let’s start with why it would be important for you want internal freedom to begin with.
It’s about testing the waters to see really how intense we can push the boundaries on what it means to be a free human being from within.
Let’s assume that time as we know it in this world will go on forever. This essentially means that humanity will be around for the rest of eternity.
Well, the reason that this is a paradox is because eternity or forever cannot actually be measured with any amount of specific amount of time.
So what does this mean?
It means that no matter how big of a number you or even a computer can come up with could never be compared to that of eternity.
It means that because no amount or measurement of time can be compared to that of eternity then eternity must be timelessness.
That means time cannot exist within eternity, which then means time cannot exist.
Every move you make, every thought you think, every emotion you have, everything you say, every breath you take all happens within your concept past and future.
In this world time is a fluid motion, and we can confirm this by the fact that time never stops on this earth.
This means that everything you are perceiving, the actions, the thoughts, the words don’t actually exist in a direct relation to forever.
When we come back down to earth, in the most practical sense we have about 85 – 90 years of average life expectancy.
Well, because 85-90 years is a measurement then according to eternity the measurements themselves don’t actually exist either.
This begins the existential question if we don’t actually exist then what is the point of life?
But because interpretation of life exists through the scope of past/future it also doesn’t exist, so your merely using these words to point you in the direction of your absolute existence.
When we cut through the illusion that interpretation equals reality, this deletes time from awareness and we are left with timelessness.
This is the formless dimension or the state of consciousness.
As someone who has had a significant glimpse into the formless, timeless dimension “It is our purpose primary purpose on this earth.” as Eckhart Tolle would like to say.
Knowing however, that our average life expectancy is nothing within the constraints of forever, this is why one would want to be devoted to the timeless nature of our absolute reality.
Knowing that our time on this earth is a fact from the logical view but illusory in pure awareness.
What does it mean to go all the way?
It means rather than being so fixated on time, letting the timeless, imageless take over your entire life, surrendering to the all, infinite eternal being.
Let’s take the deep dive now.
And rather than working up to it like the ego wants, let’s start from the end and work backwards.
Let’s start with what scares [Me] the most.
I’ll walk you through what scares me the most, and see if you can relate.
Imagine going to be one night….
Waking up the day next day and everything is pitch black. Not an OUNCE of light.
You can’t move your legs, your arms, your neck you feel paralyzed.
Well, there is a good reason why everything is pitch black and you can’t move.
You have been buried alive with a straight jacket on.
You don’t know this for sure but this is what you know it would be like, so you are almost 99% certain.
You don’t know if you anyone knows your buried, where your buried so being rescued seems hopeless.
You are stuck here without being able to move a muscle and you don’t know if you’re ever getting out.
You may be stuck until the body begins to decay from the lack of food and water.
All’s that you have is your two things.
- Your Mind
- Your Breathe
Now, assuming that like me a lot of you would go ABSOLUTELY INSANE & PSYCHOTIC.
You wouldn’t have to worry about not knowing what to do though, because you wouldn’t be able to do a thing!
The mind, has been tested in your life over and over with challenges.
Well, because this is my greatest fear it is the one thing that can push my mind to the boiling point. It has before pushed me to 100 thousand degrees celsius.
Well the ego would say that, “Well of course it’s logical to go insane and psychotic in this kind of situation.”
And it would be correct, it is logical to go insane, not just over the imagination of this situation but over everything you can imagine.
People think that going insane means, someone has been diagnosed with a brain disorder, and yet there are millions of humans who are going psychotic over simple minute things.
As my great teacher Wayne Dyer would say….
“When you squeeze an orange, you’ll always get orange juice to come out. What comes out is what’s inside. The same logic applies to you: when someone squeezes you, puts pressure on you, or says something unflattering or critical, and out of you comes anger, hatred, bitterness, tension, depression, or anxiety, that is what’s inside.”
The reason that most almost all 99.999% of human beings would go insane is not because that you have actually been buried alive, it’s because that is what is inside and it just took something drastic to happen to pull it up to the surface and magnify it.
As I said before, this is my greatest fear. And I can feel the mind begin to melt at the thought of it, so don’t sway this from the fact that my mind is no different than the next.
With that being, said there is a way out of being buried alive and that is look face to face with the insanity, with the devil inside.
Because in a scenario as being buried alive with a straight jacket there is no doing that can be done, but there is consciousness that be realized within and this consciousness can set you free.
In fact, it is only conscious awareness, the timeless dimension from within that can set you free.
That is going into the inner depths of the internal hell and ripping out the dysfunction of the human mind that causes the insanity with pure, uncorrupted awareness.
If you ever want to see a life form again, have time to eat and drink water to stay alive and see another day, then there is no other way out then through, you have absolutely NO CHOICE in the matter anymore if you want to stay alive.
It is going through this internal hell which means going all the way.
Not for the sake of causing yourself pain, it’s not intentional to make yourself go through suffering, it is intentional to do what is absolutely necessary for your internal freedom.
So if the natural harmony of the universe wants you to feel the mind come to 100,000 degrees to get through it for your freedom, then that is what is necessary.
Well, what are some things that you could come to find out, while buried underground working through the ego.
#1. You don’t really know what it is like to be alone.
You think you have been alone before? Try again.
There is a difference between being alone on a planet of 7.5 billion of the same species and then being alone almost as if you are floating in space without a trace of you.
#2. You don’t really know what it is like to be hungry.
You know that uncomfortable feeling you get when you begin to get a reeeally hungry or that time where you were “starving”?
Well, until you were underground and went a 4-5 or so without a single ounce of food, you wouldn’t even have a CLUE what it really means to be hungry or starving.
There are people in the world so hungry, that God cannot appear to them except in the form of bread. –Mahatma Gandhi
#3. You don’t know what it is like to be hopeless.
You ever been in a situation where it felt like you would never get out?
Well, try again because this takes it to another level.
So what was the root of what Wayne Dyer said when he said
“What comes out is what is inside.”
He was referring to common dysfunction of the human mind.
It is not the way reality is that is causing the insanity, it’s the way we are interpreting it and then fully and entirely believing that interpretation that is causing the agony.
The interpretation itself is a byproduct of the human mind.
So if you are stuck underground or your ego is causing you misery and you are ready to face it and get through it so you can be free, you will not do so by thinking about what is causing you this misery.
In fact, it is because of our obsessive compulsive thinking that got us buried underground or in the ego to begin with.
If all that you have is your mind and your breath, and your mind is not going to get you out because it is what is causing you harm to begin with then can only look to what’s next….
Again, you cannot face your demons by thinking about them, they will only come up to the surface when you have come to a complete silence and it is your breathing that will get you there.
After you have surrendered so fully, so effortlessly what will happen in this case of being buried is that you will be sprung up through the ground and onto the earth.
You will see a ghost leave your body. (The ego)
What will happen because you went through the hell of your false identification or ego is that you will be sprung onto heaven. Earth will have become heaven. Everything you will see, taste, touch, smell, hear and sense will have been turned into heaven.
Because now you no longer identified with the thought, ego which is what makes us go through hell, and now you know your true self as feeling from the awareness of this breath. Once the feeling of this awareness can feel itself as awareness the ego is no longer blocking your site from heaven.
The place with which you are now, is heaven.
You are a walking, eating and breathing heaven, minus belief, minus thought and minus mind.
“People usually consider walking on water or in thin air a miracle. But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged in a miracle which we don’t even recognize: a blue sky, white clouds, green leaves, the black, curious eyes of a child—our own two eyes. All is a miracle.” ― Thich Nhat Hanh
What does this mean when the ego comes up?
Is heaven still there?
Of course, heaven can never leave you even underground, but sometimes the ego blocks your sense of this eternal heaven.
So what does this mean onward?
It means that, from now on you as pure aware consciousness will periodically be forgotten, but now that you got a glimpse into heaven no longer will that burning of the ego pull you completely underground.
You will see the illusions that the mind causes, that sometimes pain & discomfort appear in the body and that they must be fully accepted with pure absolute silence for however long it takes to reach the heaven of conscious awareness.
If there is even an ounce of waiting, which implies future then pain will continue to occur. If there is even an ounce of how better things were in the past, then the pain will continue to occur.
The acceptance is not only for bringing in the silence, but for the silence itself.
The acceptance of everything that comes up in silence be it pain, anxiety, stress, overwhelm a part of the same heaven that is you.